IT has happened
They tried to convince me that it couldn’t be, that it was just rumour from bad banes who need to be re-processed
but
I just knew
I knew it wasn’t
for a long time I could feel it, I knew there was something else, something more …
and now I know
I have my Eudeamon, I love her so much
She gives me hope, hope that when my sentence comes to an end that I will never be alone again
I am so happy
*cries*
the bane falls to it’s knees, and visibly shakes, obviously weeping
it beats it’s head against the soft ground, wanting to feel something, anything other than this
[1:33] Custodian: : Weekly update received from central monitoring network. :
[1:33] Custodian whispers: +3 h, total : 24:16:40
[1:33] Custodian whispers: +3 h, total : 27:16:40
[1:33] Custodian whispers: +3 h, total : 30:16:40
[1:33] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 30:46:40
[1:33] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 31:16:40
[1:33] Custodian: : Violations totaled and demerits assigned. For this week’s violations, your sentence has been extended by 10 hours. Try harder, E-8297. :
getting better ?
[11:48] Custodian: : Weekly update received from central monitoring network. :
[11:48] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 30:5:50
[11:48] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 30:35:50
[11:48] Custodian: : Violations totaled and demerits assigned. For this week’s violations, your sentence has been extended by 1 hours. Try harder, E-8297. :
i’ve done well ?
at least i think so
[1:44] Custodian: : Weekly update received from central monitoring network. :
[1:44] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 41:7:20
[1:44] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 41:37:20
[1:44] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 42:7:20
[1:44] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 42:37:20
[1:44] Custodian: : Violations totaled and demerits assigned. For this week’s violations, your sentence has been extended by 2 hours. Try harder, E-8297. :
I’m scared … not of anything physical but of the future.
I am delighting in my position, I love being a Bane.
The imposed control, the clinical strictness of it.
but
When I am freed I will no longer have that, Mistress Emm is not here any more, I do not know where she is or when she will be back and I have no-one to really control me in this way.
I was going to start this sentence with the word ‘luckily’, but I’ve had a rethink… “Luckily I am submissive, so life under the control of the Custodian is easier” … but really, is it ?
I have become afraid for my future, of what it will mean to be free, and this is because as i see it I have enjoyed my time as a Bane far too much.
Yes I have weighed up the pro’s and con’s of being home aganst those of remaining a Bane, and to be fair, they come out even.
I have needs that are not going to be met when I am free, but I am getting more than I need as a Bane. Does this sound selfish ? I really don’t know anymore
all i know is … I am afraid to be free
OUCH .. no other word for it
[13:08] Custodian: : Weekly update received from central monitoring network. :
[13:08] Custodian whispers: +3 h, total : 39:8:0
[13:08] Custodian whispers: +3 h, total : 42:8:0
[13:08] Custodian whispers: +3 h, total : 45:8:0
[13:08] Custodian whispers: +3 h, total : 48:8:0
[13:08] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 48:38:0
[13:08] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 49:8:0
[13:08] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 49:38:0
[13:08] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 50:8:0
[13:08] Custodian: : Violations totaled and demerits assigned. For this week’s violations, your sentence has been extended by 14 hours. Try harder, E-8297. :
how harsh that moment was
to see her, kneeling to another
a mixture of fury, anger, disappointment, sadness, …. & understanding.
I wanted to humiliate her, there and then, in front of the *witch* who she was kneeling before , but I was stunned and also knew she would enjoy that
I am not in the mood to give her that pleasure
I am really only feeling hurt & disappointed now though, to see MY girl kneeling like that
yeah … not so good this time
[22:51] Custodian: : Weekly update received from central monitoring network. :
[22:51] Custodian whispers: +3 h, total : 43:57:40
[22:51] Custodian: : Violations totaled and demerits assigned. For this week’s violations, your sentence has been extended by 3 hours. Try harder, E-8297. :
but look, only 44 hours to go … just over half way now 🙂
i’ve been a good gir … Bane
[14:42] Custodian: : Weekly update received from central monitoring network. :
[14:42] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 47:42:50
[14:42] Custodian whispers: +30 mn, total : 48:12:50
[14:42] Custodian: : Violations totaled and demerits assigned. For this week’s violations, your sentence has been extended by 1 hours. Try harder, E-8297. :
You must admit, gaining 1 hour demerit for me is a wonder !
but only 48 hours to go … this shouldn’t take long 😀
so i’m stood on the roof of one of the buildings are the Bane Processing area, when 2 .. strange humans come by
Tine Rhode & Sandrina Lane trying to break in to the Bane Processing buildings, one of them actually did, after unsuccessfully trying to gain access through normal means, she/it created a box and slid/edited her way into the building.
They were talking about messing with the relay … but most of it was in german and then in IM (i assume)
griefers … or ?
definitely bad humans
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